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[08 May 2007|09:04am] |
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I really want to delete my LJ. I'm not having the same chemistry with this one which I had with my old one.
I might just keep this one, get a new one and only disclose that to people who ask. Yeah, that's what I'll do. So, if you want to read Adaleena's nonsense, AIM me, leave a message or something. But remember, the new one will a) be public and b) be honest.
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[29 Apr 2007|11:28am] |
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My LJ makes me feel really self centered and petty. Yeah...Noone really posts anymore and it's sort of depressing. Like my friends page consists mainly of my own posts and that's it. I know busyness is a factor, so I guess it's ok...
Mmmyeah.
But if you read this, make a new post or write a new comment here. Seriously. I want to know who reads this garbage...
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[16 Apr 2007|11:30pm] |
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So in this gorges weather, I've also managed to get a heat rash on my face. How great is that? And I left all the cooling gel and crap at home.
I'm really feeling more ashamed of my appearance. I have way too many zits and I dunno how to get rid of them...The acne crap I used at home made it worse and I'm sort of getting frustrated. I really dunno what to do. I think that's sort of burning my self esteem.
I also need to stop walking into doors.
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[14 Apr 2007|09:21am] |
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Shubho Noboborsho!
(Happy Bengali New Year, everyone!)
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| To My Mommy... |
[04 Apr 2007|06:07pm] |
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When I was little, my mommy used to always be there for me. I mean, every tantrum I threw and every concert I had she was there. And even when I had my viola solo for a local concert (which sucked, mind you), she was there, cheering me on in the sidelines. I even remember as far as the swim test, she was there, cheering for me even though I was one of the worst swimmers who really shouldn't have passed that exam. In short, she was always there, supporting me on the sidelines. And that's what I always loved about her.
The last couple of days, however, I've felt like she's no longer there for me. Like when I went to tell her something that was bothering me, her only response was and has been "Then why don't you come back to Rutgers?". Like whenever, I tell her something, it has always been that response. Nowadays, I'm even scared to tell her anything. I don't like this inability for not being able to support me. I need the confidence she had in me and I think that's what really kept me going. I really miss my mommy now. I mean, not her, but as in her willingness to support me even when I'm doing the near impossible. And now, I feel like I have nobody now. I'm in the middle of nowhere, where nobody cares and they would want me to do poorly. And my biggest fan is gone.
Mommy, I know you used to do this (read my LJ) when I was little and it always used to annoy me when you did, but I really miss you. I miss our long conversations and our rants about school or work. I miss the faith you had in me. I feel like I'm losing the only friend I have known the longest.
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| Spring Break from Tuesday on out |
[25 Mar 2007|09:16am] |
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Tuesday:
Went to the mall with Clara and since neither of us are big shoppers, we just sat at the food court and talked for several hours. It was a ton of fun since normally, I see her, sleep deprived and stressed out with school work, and she sees me, stressed out with school work. I also saw Mrs. Perna at the mall, but I don't think she noticed me.
Then, Amanders and Harry came over and we talked for a while. We even went to visit Jenny, but she was busy. Even so, it was a lot of fun. We talked a lot about people and things. Supposedly, recently a teacher got arrested from BR for possessing cocaine and heroin (I didn't believe the story when I first heard it, but then I saw it on the Bridgewater Courier News and then I was like "woah"). This is strange since over winter break another teacher was under house arrest too. My oh my, what in the world is going on with BR...
Wednesday:
Didn't do anything too eventful.
Thursday:
Didn't do anything too eventful unless you consider sitting on my cousin eventful.
Friday:
Went shopping (or browsing) with my mommy. Not too bad. Saw Mrs. Perna again and Loehmann's. Haha, yes. Then went to the temple and Pi Night. Pi Night was the saddest Pi Night I've ever went to. Of the entire night, the good part was seeing Liz. On the friendfront, it was a lot of fun since I got to talk to Liz a lot (probably more than we ever did in high school, which is sort of sad), but Pi Night sucked. Hardly nobody came and it was pretty uneventful. All they had was a pie eating contest for girls and boys and then pi recitation from Koenig and then Jeopardy -- teachers, students and then for final, teachers and students. I'm glad I sort of went to Pi Night though since it reminded me that I don't belong in high school anymore. I also found out that so far two people from BR got into Cornell. :-)
Saturday:
Studied for Physics, did my Math Homework, watched a movie for my FWS...
Sunday:
Now, going to take a shower and then leaving home in an hour and a half. I wish spring break were longer. I'M NOT READY!!!!! Why'd it have to finish soooo quickly?
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[21 Mar 2007|08:18pm] |
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YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAAY!!!! I FIGURED OUT THE CS PROJECT AND THEREFORE, I AM DONEEEEEEE WITH IT!!! AND I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF WITHOUT HELP!!!!
Actually, I still need to comment it, but I'm done with the brainy stuff!!! wahoooo. See I told you I'm more productive at home.
So now I just really need to finish Physics Homework, Studiage and then CS Reading.
I've also been spoiled rotten here and ate too much so now I'm getting over a stomach ache and bouts of nausea. Oh yeah, I'm going to be going to Pi Night on Friday...that is provided people I know go. If you go, let me know.
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| Home, Sweet Home |
[18 Mar 2007|10:07pm] |
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Made it back home after much dumbness in the weather. I also think I need to readjust my layout since it's making this computer flip out. If it's making your computer flip out, please let me know. So, I can't really view friends pages much, so AIM me instead.
Few Things:
1) Shortline is the biggest pain in my ass and if you have the option, please don't ride it. I wasted about $146.60 on tickets ($65 on the ticket for Friday which they wouldn't accept yesterday and then $81.60 on the ticket for Saturday to get home). Luckily, after much arguing, they said I would need to call someone up who would refund my $81.60 ticket.
2) Home feels really strange. I really miss the people from school and although I'm happy to see my parents, I miss my friends too. I think the major sucky part about this break is that all my home friends are back at school now too. It makes me really uncomfortable, knowing that at one point over the summer, I was sitting in front of the very same computer, eager to make new friends at Cornell. They pretended to care in an attempt to befriend me, but now I doubt they give a shit about me or how I am. Honestly, if they're like that, I'm glad they're not my friends and I didn't actually have to meet them. But their shallowness makes me nauseous.
I had more to say, but my public entry to people who view LJ is now morphing into a friends only entry. My family believes in sleep at 9:30 and since this computer is in my parents room and I have music in the background, I think I'm killing their sleep too.
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[16 Mar 2007|10:06pm] |
| You Are From Mercury | 
You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything. |
| You Are a Boston Terrier Puppy | 
Aggressive, wild, and rambunctious.
Deep down, you're just a cuddle monster. |
| Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me" | 
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out
Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking
What turns you off: fighting and conflict
Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love |
| You Are a Kinetic Learner | 
You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks.
You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things.
You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star! |
| You've Changed 52% in 10 Years | 
You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.
You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you. |
| You Are 17% Misanthropic | 
You're definitely not misanthropic - in fact, you're probably a people person.
While you may get annoyed with the world from time to time, you remember that everyone's only human! |
| Your Linguistic Profile: | | 50% General American English | | 35% Yankee | | 5% Dixie | | 5% Upper Midwestern | | 0% Midwestern |
| You Should Maybe Go to Grad School | 
Grad school may be the right choice for you, but you need to investigate further.
So put those studying skill to use, and pick a program that's perfect for you.
And make sure you're going for the right reasons - not just to avoid getting a job. |
| What Adaleena Means |
A is for Artistic
D is for Dashing
A is for Animated
L is for Lucky
E is for Extreme
E is for Emotional
N is for Natural
A is for Astounding |
| You Are 60% Open Minded | 
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. |
| You Are 84% Happy | 
It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you.
You know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at you. |
| Your Average American Name Is... | 
Angela Nicole Jackson |
| You Are Very Honest | 
You tell it like it is, no matter what.
Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.
And while some may get hurt by your honesty...
At least everyone knows where you stand! |
| What Your Face Says | 
At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.
Overall, your true self is creative and expressive.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless. |
| You Are: 70% Dog, 30% Cat | 
You and dogs definitely have a lot in common.
You're both goofy, happy, and content with the small things in life.
However, you're definitely not as needy as the average dog. You need your down time occasionally. |
| You Are Not a Dumb American | 
You got 8/10 correct.
You know a good deal about American history, but there's some basic facts you have wrong.
Time to go back to history class! |
| You Are Ernie | 
Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times.
You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained
You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun.
How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you! |
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[16 Mar 2007|04:31pm] |
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bah, stranded in Ithaca...see you tomorrow, home. :-(
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SHPRING BREAK 2007 IS HEREEEEEE FOR MOST PEOPLE AT CORNELL!!!!! WAHOOOO.
Here's to an enjoyable, safe and exciting week for us all (oh yeah, welcome back to school, all you people who just ended their shpring break :-P). haha. Come to think of it, this was worth the wait (although I still have a quiz to take and a lab to endure).
WAHOOOOOOOOOOOO! ENJOYYYYY. :-)
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| People. say hello. :-P |
[10 Mar 2007|03:19pm] |
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I feel like I'm really lonely. Like no one says hi to me anymore...noone from home, noone from school. I feel like I'm the only one trying to make an attempt to keep in touch with people. I know everyone is busy, but what's wrong with just saying hello? Just a simple "hello", "how are you?" and "whatsup?". I know I'm boring, but even those can lead to great conversations, no? I'm really tired of taking the initiative to say hello. I remember in July coming home from work, getting pounded with AIMs from everyone. I miss those days. Nowadays, I don't think anyone would even care if I got up one morning and went to Mars for the next year or so.
ugh. I feel like I'm really desperate for conversation, but there's not much to do in Ithaca if you're alone. I also wish the people from Orientation or prior to Orientation would take the initiative to say "hello", but whatever. I feel like I'm forcing them to talk to me. Like obviously, they're too nice to just ignore me. I'm really considering not going on AIM anymore, because noone talks to me (I talk to them). AIM is for chatting and if I don't chat, I might as well delete it...
Please say hello or talk to me. It'll make me smile. :-)
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[28 Feb 2007|07:26pm] |
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Academically speaking, today was one of the best days of my life here at Cornell. :-)
I'm really happy and I feel really capable.
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| Happy Birthday Melanie!! |
[26 Feb 2007|09:08pm] |
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I don't think people are used to me being sad. So as of now, I shall be happy again!
:-) :-) :-)
Don't be scared of me now. I'm happy again. And if I understood Physics, I'd be the happiest, but that's ok. :-) I still have tomorrow, Wednesday and Thursday to understand it. I'm still really stressed out about getting prelims back on Wednesday and family stuff, but I'm going to smile and laugh now!
:-) :-) :-)
PHWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I love you guys and for the first time ever, I was able to confide in someone (other than my mother) who didn't tell me I'm being irrational.
<3
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[25 Feb 2007|05:29pm] |
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I've gotten really critical of myself lately which is quite strange. Normally, I'm the happy one who's proud to be herself with no insecurities whatsoever (or maybe occasionally), but why all of a sudden now? I love myself and I should be proud of who I am. I mean, I'm nice, sensitive, caring, courteous and approachable.
And now I realize that I'm lying to myself. To think the other day, I was telling someone to be honest to atleast themselves if not everyone else. Shit. I hate being a hypocrite. I'm really sorry, me. I guess, it's just this mental picture I have of me to be an ideal person, but in reality I'm not and by lying to myself, I'm lying to everyone else too. The harsh truth is that I do not possess the integrity that I believe ideal citizens hold. I want to and I try, but I don't think people in this world are used to it. Maybe I should get rid of these expectations that I hold for me and others around me. Maybe that's why I really don't have a best friend who I can confide in or have ever been romantically involved with someone. How can I after all, if I just expect that someone to be ideal in my mind? Maybe that's why when I think that I do like someone, their behavior makes me change my mind in a matter of minutes.
And now, something in me wants to keep this public. Why? I'm not sure. No, this isn't me trying to be desperate, or me wanting attention (or maybe it is). I promise that tomorrow I'll make friends only posts which will be happy.
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[14 Feb 2007|06:58am] |
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ugh...so i guess im going to class in 16 inches of snow and they still havent cleaned the sidewalks and such yet...to think i can barely get through a day with an inch of snow. im really curious how profs will get to class today...
oh well...
HAPPY VALLIES DAY EVERYONE.
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[27 Jan 2007|01:16pm] |
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I have officially cancelled my myspace profile. I realize this is an inconvenience for a lot of my friends, but I'm tired of spam and annoying people. I very rarely used myspace and most of my friends on myspace now have facebook so there's no point in having something that I don't use.
In othernews, I have two more problems for Physics to complete and I'm already exhausted.
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| Cornell Semester 2 |
[20 Jan 2007|08:42pm] |
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So, I'm backkkk for semester 2. :-)
Here's to a much better, happy and exciting semester.
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[18 Jan 2007|09:24am] |
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So after much technical difficulties:
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| Jennnnnnn said so :-P |
[12 Jan 2007|08:56am] |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
21. Would you make out with me?
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